1.9.05 2:11 pm
its been a very long time since i met u..like a freakin long time..n all i haf left of us is dat one neoprint we took last year..dat's the only thang i haf left of us..im realli cryin now...missin u..missing everything we're been thru..
u got me reminiscing bout stuff..the first time we met..ko kekek..tymez ive been down n u always bein around to cheer me up..the tymes wen i lied to u bt u simply see thru me..no one's ever been able to read me like a book..see thru me wif their bare naked eyes..no one..nt even ma mum!!
u noe wen im cryin inside..u noe wen im juz fakin loads of shitz..u simply noe how to make me smile n forget all the bad times i haf..
somehow ure juz special..very special indeed..n its like i had u by my side 4 a very long time..n the next thing i knew ure gone..u juz disappeared..i nvr hear news bout u..all i hear is.."has,hari tu aku nampak kama"...dats all i hear..DATS ALL!!!NOTIN MORE!!!they nvr even tel me "he's doin fine..he's ok..he misses u too"..how i wish i can hear dat at least once..bt no..i nvr..NVR!!!where the hell have u been??dun u care bout me no more???wait!!STOP!!!u dun...u dun care..u nvr cared now did u??u never bothered bout me..u juz pretended to..huh...am i right?m i wrong to say dis??m i???
if u did care u could haf at the very least left me a msg at frenster..or even call me 4 5 freakin mins..now im wondering y i even bothered writing this entry..coz u dunnoe bout dis blog of mine..nor do u noe how freakin much i miss u..neither do u noe dat i want u back in my life..so badly..i realli want u back in dis freakin lame stupid assholic full of dismay too controlled simply unavoidable life of mine!!!u perk thangs up..u noe dat??i noe u noe..coz i noe u somehow noe loads of shitz bout me juz by lookin at me..
urgh!!!i hate u max!!I HATE U!!!i feel like punching u in da face n make u realise shitz!!!make u realise how miserable dis life of mine has been...come to think about it..u alreadi noe coz u made it miserable by abandoning me...leaving me here in the corner of the dark wishing,prayin,hoping u wud juz come back n brighten dis scary life of mine..
come back plz...
