6.5.05 10:54 am
aku mls nk lyn org mcm ko...bila aku bingit ko act mcm ko tak tau ape ko uat..bila aku suruh ko fikir alik ko masih leh tanya "ape i uat salah?"....ape ko uat salah..ko perah ko nya otak fikir...klau da tau baru lang aku..ure so oblivious of ya own mistakes...cut the crap!
bila aku yg uat slh ko mengamok..ko suruh aku fikir..alu fikir..perah otak aku..in da end aku mintak maaf..out of sincerity..out of da willingness to accept the mistakes i did..da sins i haf done to u n to others..im da sinner..sin is in my name..so wat u expect...walaupun aku luka hati ko bila aku lang all those hurtful truth aku masih come clean to u..aku tk rela bohong kepada ko dan diri aku...it hurts to tel a lie..bt im a liar i admit..i lied to u many times bt u still haf to admit i did come clean...aku tak rasa ko nk lang aku ape yg benar..coz aku tau ko pernah bohong ngan aku..tu pon aku tak pernah tanya ko coz i trust dat u will come clean one day..tapi till now aku diamkan diri..aku nk tgk ape ko nk uat..either keep it far away or lang aku..tapi from wat i can see u prefer to keep it away from me...n wen u come clean bout it its more like u tellin me bout a tale..a long old tale which i knew of even b4 u tel me..
aku pun da tk lang ko aku nya prob..coz wat can u do?yg ko leh uat dgr..kasi advise..advise pon yg tk guna..dats y i nvr bother tellin u...n u..u keep tinking all my prob revolve around my dad...eh klau semua prob revolves around my dad aku tk kisah la..ko mana tau ape aku mengahapdapi...klau aku lang pon ape gunanya...no use babe!even if i were to vent my anger on sumtin its nt like u care..even if i cry coz im under too much stress ure still oblivious..u love to act like noting happened..senang kata..KO TK PERNAH KISAH PSAL AKU LA JACK
every single thang i do its all sincerity..aku try ubah cara hidup aku..aku cuba ubah prangai aku..wat 4?so dat i can adapt to your simple lifestyle...we r 2 worlds apart...im from venus ya from mars..n oh i hate mars!!mars chox sux..ewww...ani-o-ways...aku cuba b there 4 u wen u need help..even if i try pon it goes down da drain...in da end aku jugak kena marah..kau kena marah sebab aku try my best to help u in ani ways possible..semua juz goes down da drain..flows down smoothly..even the tears i shed dun flow dat smoothly..sumtimes aku rasa im soo unappreciated..like dat time i help ya sis...it did feel nice doin wat i did..it feels soo nice dat u had to scold me in da end..psal ape?psal ko nya lil curiosity...n wen i said i didnt trust u..trust me on dis i realli dun trust u...my trust in u realli has gone to jamaica n it wun return..u can go there n take it denreturn it to me..i simply dun haf trust in u...bt to gain my trust back it wudnt be dat simple...like i said..i will 4give bt i wun forget...
n psal fam ko..ko da keje kan..ko da besar..ko tk suka cara aku tlg ko..so u can help urself..dun come tellin me ya fam prob coz it will worsen wen i try to help..tul tk ape aku ckp ni?tul kan..klau slh lang aku la..aniways psal aku tk tau nk face the prob in da face ya wrong..im facing it now..n now im facing by far my worst prob..n in da previous paragraph i said my probs dun revolve around my dad..so go figure wat n hu dat prob is..if u dunnoe hu or wat dat prob is..i dunnoe wat to say man..jack tu prob ko da kenal sape n wat the prob is ko da mmg tau...so ko gi la pikir ape da prob is klau ko tk tau...pikir n dun tel me..n aku tk perlu simpati atau pertolongan ko...aku da besar.aku tau ape aku uat.even if i haf to die facing my own probs i dun mind..coz dat way i noe ive tried my very best facing the prob...im nt even running away even if the prob is sumone whom i love,sumone whom i protected from everything i could..gave everything i had..love,protection, care n concern n even my frenship...
aniways klau aku bual ngan ko cara kasar aku mintak maaf..aku da tk nk bual cara baik la jack.fed up aku dibuatnya bila aku baik..so dun expect da person whom u tried to change...now ive change..if u cant accept it den leave..
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